Women's intimate portraiture

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"Hello Boudie babes!

My name is Amy, I'm 26, and I'm both Alyssa's sister and her studio manager! Throughout my time working with Alyssa, I have seen so many women's lives changed that step through our doors. Even down to the most self conscious clients, I have seen them cry tears of joy each and every single time. These women would always tell me that they were the special case, that they would be the one we couldn't help, and they were the only one that wasn't beautiful. They have always been wrong, and I have watched them realize it the second they see their photographs. Their genuine smiles makes everything worth it. However, when it finally came time for me to do my own session, I thought the exact same things I had reassured all those women before me. 'I' was going to be the one that wasn't beautiful.

Growing up, I have always been self conscious. Back in high school, I weighed much more than I do today. It didn't matter how hot it was, how humid, I would always cover my body up in any way I could. I was ashamed of myself. I went through all 4 years of high school wearing a black hoodie every single day just to hide myself.

Fastforward 5 years out of high school, and I was still living with the same insecurities. Until one day, Alyssa hired a personal trainer for herself and asked me so genuinly to do this with her, I couldn't refuse. As the months went on, I found myself really working hard at it. I ate extremly healthy, worked out 3-4 times a week, pushing myself every time. Every time I felt so out of energy, I would always tell myself "one more." I lost the weight, I lost 60 lbs and I have kept it off to today. I found a new confidence in myself, something to be proud of. But the concerns were still there. I still couldn't love myself. 

I never thought in a million years, I would willingly do this. My sister didn't ask me anymore. I had turned her down so many times. But I finally told her that I was ready, and I remember how excited she was for me. It wouldn't be for another few months that I would actually do it. But seeing myself on that screen, and truly understanding every client that said they couldn't, every client that said they'd be the one who wasn't beautiful, you're wrong. I am beautiful, and I never thought I could see that until today."