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"Hi ladies, I'm Dani! I'm a competitive crossfit athlete, so I pretty much spend my days in workout clothes with dirty hair. I have a bad habit of not taking enough "me time." I never wear make up, never get my nails or my hair done. I like to claim that I'm just low maintenance, but I know that's not true. I gave up on myself. I've always had an issue with my appearance growing up. I was in the rut of all ruts. I couldn't tell you when I was added to Alyssa's Boudoir facebook page, but I started noticing posts and pictures of all these beautiful girls on my feed.
I always checked the page for the new pictures everyone posted of themselves, or that Alyssa posted of the girls she shot.
Every woman was different, yet they were all so beautiful and bad ass showing such vulnerability. Still though, I never thought I had what it takes to do a shoot myself. Months later, I was on facebook and I got a notification that Alyssa was live so I jumped right to it. I don't know what came over me, but watching the live video of this beautiful girl made me send Alyssa an email right then.
From the very beginning Alyssa is very warm and caring. My initial reason for wanting a boudoir photo shoot was for my boyfriend. I kept thinking how happy it would make him and what he would like to see me wear. I was making it be all about him. But, for some reason, filling out the questionnaire switched something for me. This experience was definitely for me. He would love it no matter what I did, but it was important for me to love it first. It was so exciting for me to buy the lingerie! I seriously scoured different websites everyday until I found what I felt were THE outfits. I was ready waaaay early and had everything picked out about 2 months before my shoot.
The day before my shoot, I was so incredibly nervous. I shaved like I did for the first time I ever slept with my boyfriend! Lol and I think I moisturized like 5 times, and got my nails done, and my eyebrows waxed! It was a major self care day, that I was way overdue for. Waking up the morning of though, MAN was I a whole other level of nervous. I was the most nervous about getting there on time. But, I think that was my brain's way of taking one step at a time. I think my stomach was in my throat after I rang the doorbell! However, you are quickly embraced into a warm hug from Alyssa!
Hair and Make up was my time where I was able to get comfortable and relax. Everyone is so sweet and comforting, that I totally stopped thinking about how I had to get naked in a few minutes. I'm probably one of the most insecure people. I hate the spotlight, it makes me incredibly uncomfortable. Yet somehow!! I felt so fricken confident in just my underwear. Which is crazy talk for me. I don't even like when my coach is watching me try for a heavy lift, and here I was just strutting my stuff with no top on. Leaving the shoot that day I felt so good about myself. Like if I could do that, what can't I do!? No matter how awkward I felt, I knew I wanted Alyssa to facebook live my shoot. That was the exact way I was able to get the guts to
reach out to her, so I hoped that others might feel that exact way seeing mine.
I was able to schedule my viewing for one week after my shoot. This ended up being the hardest part for me. Leading up to it, I had so many fears that I was going to see my pictures and hate them. That I was going to look hideous and awkward. So, heading to the viewing my stomach was in knots.
However, the viewing had to be my favorite part of the entire experience! We started by watching the film (which I didn't think I could watch myself without cringing), but I ended up watching it twice!! I was so in love. It was so raw, yet I saw my beauty. The pictures though?! Holy crap. I definitely felt like an awkward weirdo in some of the poses and totally thought that I was going to look like a girl trying, and failing, to be sexy. I was so wrong about myself. I was sexy! I added on the shower option and I highly highly recommend that! My absolute favorite pictures are the shower ones. I'm so proud of my pictures I just want to show them to the world! The confidence I have gained after this experience is indescribable. I will absolutely do another shoot, maybe three! It's such an addicting high to feel like there is nothing holding you back from shining. So, if there is one take away from my experience, it's to just take the leap of faith and schedule your boudoir photo shoot. I guarantee you won't regret it!!"