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My name is Alix and I am a 24 year old teacher. I absolutely love my job but it leaves me tired and completely unglamorous (haha). I’ve been following Alyssa on Instagram for awhile now because my hairdresser used to work with her and had her own boudoir photos taken and I thought they turned out amazing! So, I’ve been wanting to do it since then, but I just couldn’t build up the guts to do it at the time. When I got engaged back in November, I considered doing it again as a groom’s gift, but I chickened out…again. The new struggle was figuring out what to get my fiancé for the day of the wedding as a gift from me. I thought about maybe a tie watch or tickets to a concert or game, but Alyssa’s photos kept scratching at the back of my mind.
Long story short (too late lol), I finally booked my session with Alyssa and I couldn’t have been more thrilled! As I was filling out the questionnaire and was trying to come up with answers to her questions, it made me start thinking about the whole process. I have never really been a self-conscious person - except for when I was in high school and had bad acne - but not since then. There are parts of me that I don’t really like or that I wish I could fix, but I absolutely hate exercising so I know that those parts I don’t like won’t change. So, I’ve just dealt with it. My butt and thighs were always my biggest dislike about myself because they’re big and make it so unbelievably hard to shop for jeans or pants in general. I just kept thinking, “how is Alyssa going to make that sexy?” Plus it didn’t help that I didn’t even know what it meant to be sexy. I have never felt sexy in my entire life. I know my fiancé thinks that I’m sexy and attractive, but I just didn’t see it about myself. When I booked my session with Alyssa, I did it for my fiancé knowing that he would absolutely love to see pictures of me like that. After I turned in my questionnaire and such, I started thinking over and over again in my head and was looking over Alyssa’s Instagram at all of the lives of different women that she has changed through her photos, and I opened my email at 10pm and sent Alyssa this, “…I know I said that this is a gift for my fiancé as a groom's gift, but this is for me…” That was kind of my eye opening moment that yes, this is a gift for my fiancé, but more importantly, this was for me. For me to see myself the way the world actually saw me and not the way that our minds like to see us.
The day of the shoot came and I was so nervous! My hands were shaking so bad! But as soon as Alyssa opened that door it’s like everything changed. She was so happy to have me there and all of the beauty team was equally as excited to have me there. All of them were so amazing, my nerves quickly started to dissipate. I was so anxious as the team was doing my hair and makeup - I wanted to see it so bad! When I finally got to see it, I was amazed! Just from my makeup and hair alone, I thought I looked pretty dang hot! When we finally got to the picture taking part, I was so excited! When the whole thing was over, I was a little sad because I really loved the experience so much! Honestly though, the best part was the photo reveal. Because hot damn, I looked so good! I never thought I could ever be sexy in a way, but Alyssa can make a blade of grass look sexy (lol). I saw myself in a way that I never thought I could. When I left, I felt empowered and really good about myself; I held myself a little straighter. When I saw my fiancé that night, he asked me what I did that day because I had my hair and makeup all done up and that I was glowing and he didn’t know why. I just smiled because I knew, but he would have to wait to find out. Alyssa and her team empower women in so many ways and I can’t wait to do another session!